this isn't me
i'm not what you see
my face is a mask
no one can look past
these aren't my eyes
they're telling you lies
always they hide
what's really inside
my smile's not real
i hide what i feel
outside i'm lying
inside i'm crying
you'll never see
what's inside of me
if you saw my heart
you'd tear it apart
my mask is a shield
i always will wield
i'm not what you see
this isn't me
I am the wind, light and free,
on magic feet dance weightlessly
I'm flying through a sky that sings
and soaring on my unseen wings
It fills the air with music sweet,
this dancing on my magic feet
I am the sea, its graceful tide
rolls underneath me as I glide
across the waters of my dreams
My grand jetés boundless, it seems
I feel my heart can scarcely beat
when dancing on my magic feet
I am a star, a ray of light
I dance into the black of night
The sky my stage, the earth below
my audience. The time moves slow
I feel alive and whole and free,
dancing on my magic feet
I am a Dreamer
I dream and I see things
that never were
things that you could never perceive —
except in
Dreams
I am a Reader
I read and go to places
that don't exist
places you can never reach —
except in
Dreams
I am a Storyteller
I write and tell of things
that never happened
things that you would never believe —
except in
Dreams
I am a Dancer
but I dance to music
that isn't real
music you can never hear —
except in
Dreams
I am a Dreamer
when I sleep, I dream things
that never were
things no one else will ever see —
unless they
Dream
i get up in the morning
and don a plastic face
so you won't see the tears
the pain or the disgrace
i wear a plastic smile
so you think all is well
you don't see inside
i'm living though hell
i put on a show
just to earn your love
i can't be merely me
that isn't enough
what you want me to be
is a wind-up plastic doll
you don't care if i
am human at all
i step up to the stage
and perform an act for you
i can't be merely me
that would never do
you nod and say you're proud
but what are you proud of?
a mask, a doll, a fake
is that what you love?
but i hate being plastic
underneath the mask, i'm real
i'm human inside
i th
As I write this essay, I'm looking over a passage in The Hawk and the Dove by Penelope Wilcock. It's the part where old Father Carnforth relates to Melissa and her family what his doctor has told him: "You're going downhill this year, James." To this the priest says, "But I am eighty-three. What can you expect? 'If you mean my chest is worse,' I said to him, 'I will accept your judgement as a medical man, but don't tell me I am going downhill. The road climbs upwards, upwards to the light.'" Though it's been a long time since I read this book, I've never forgotten that line. Often I've pondered those words and what they mean not just a